Well, first of all, September 5th is National Be Late for Something Day. And I made it through the day without actually being late to anything. Until my list. I was late posting my list. Oops!
So, here goes on the things I tend to worry about:
- Being late — I am worried about it more in the sense that I’m concerned how others are going to react to my frequent lateness. It’s annoying. I’m aware of it. I’m working on it.
- Car accidents — I am fine when I’m driving, when I can control my own vehicle, but I struggle when other people I care deeply for are going on long trips or in a car at all. It stems from knowing too many people who’ve died in crashes.
- Losing my job unexpectedly — after it happening once, it has taken me a long time to get to where I am not constantly thinking this with every little thing I do. It’ll always probably be in the back of my mind though.
- My grandmas — I worry that they’re not safe, that they’re lonely, that I haven’t shown them how much I appreciate them. And I’m awful at calling.
- What other people think of me — This comes from being an over-teased, obnoxious preteen/teen, but after being told you’re loud, obnoxious and annoying enough times, you believe it and either embrace it or become incredibly paranoid about it. It all depends on the day which one I’ll choose.
- Unbalanced relationships — Far too many times, I’ve felt like I value a friendship more than it’s being reciprocated. At the same time, I often fear that I’m not engaging in other friendships to the same degree as those friends. Am I not focusing on the right friendship? Am I being taken for granted? Am I taking others for granted?
- Never getting married and/or never having kids — Let’s all be honest. I don’t have any prospects in sight. And I fear that if I do eventually end up with a family, all of my friends will already be “past that stage,” and all they’ll know to do to relate is just give advice about, “I’ve been there …”
- … and I’m sure the list could keep going. In fact, I absolutely know it.
That’s when I remind myself of 1 Peter 5:7: “Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” (NIV) So, that’s what I plan to do before my eyes grow heavy tonight.